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i don't really know what is happen around me all the time.
i don't really know am i saying most of the time.
Could be the imprefect mounthful of language of mine.
Could be whirlpool mindset of mine.
Could be the tactless self of mine.
i don't know.

As a bLender, i am so ashame of myself.
i cant make everyone like me.
i cant make everyone enjoy the time they are spending with me
i cant make them feel comfortable around me.
i feel weird.

but why am i doing all this??
just to satisfy the people that i feel comfortable to be with..
i'm used to be so good at it.
but i'm too tired to care now.

i know my role around my bLenders.
i know i am the entertainer always.
i know i am the lamer talker around.
i know i am the loser as always.

but all this i am doing..
makes me lose myself in it.
i'm getting so confuse..
i'm craving for a nostalgic person
that can comfort me sometimes
i smear my love to all
but i dun think i'm getting them
so i wind myself up,
to stone and escape from the real world.

i dun care wat people think
i dun wanna care.
i dun care how people feel
i dun wanna care.
i dun wish to be a nudge
but it might just be your sophisticated life that is the hinder.
just let things be it.
everything is planned to its destiny
and i believe it.

so just start to be a simple book to be read
and i might just be your greatest fan..